In the last 24 hours my life has gotten flipped upside down. Today I have to make an appointment with a lawyer to draw up a will to make sure that my oldest son will stay with my husband, his stepdad just in case anything does happen to me. My husband has raised our oldest…
I Live In Domestic Violence:But It’s Not What You Think
By Guest Writer: A. Sparkman I am a consistent victim of domestic violence. It’s hard to admit that to myself. There is daily abuse in my house. It can be verbal, emotional, and often times it is physical, sometimes, it is all three in the same moment. I am often told that I am stupid,…
You Are Normal!!!!
When you are making plans for something important or honestly for anything else. Do you make a plan A, plan B, plan C, and just for good measure even a plan D? Does your stomach drop and your body brace when you hear your phone ring? When you get up in the morning does everything…
One Of The Worst Days Of My Life
Today has been one of the worst days of my life. It is like every single time I think things can’t possibly get worse I find out how very wrong I am. Today my daughter refused to participate in family therapy. She stated, “I don’t want to talk to that bitch.” So, the therapist and…
Dreading Tomorrow: Late Night Freak Out
To say I that I am a wreck right now would be a huge understatement. It is one o'clock in the morning and I am sitting in my car chain smoking because my anxiety is through the roof. My ptsd is in overdrive. I have been trying to fight off a panic attack for the…
I BELIEVE YOU
Today I had the incredibly honor of talking with a mom that has read my blog. She has a child that is just like my daughter. Their behaviors and histories are very similar. We talked about how we both have had to fight an uphill battle to not only get our children help, but also…
Living With Complex PTSD
I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2018. I had started seeing a therapist to help me cope with my daughter and everything that was going on. I told her what had happened in the last year and all that our family had been through with my daughter for years. I told her about everything I…
Today’s Agenda: PTSD & Grief
Here I am in my car again typing away. Thankfully today is a beautiful day. I have all my windows down, the warm sun and breeze feels amazing. I am pretty sure my neighbors think I am absolutely nuts by now because for the past couple of weeks that is all they see is me…
The New Journey Of Grief
When someone dies it is not just the physical person that we grieve. It is the loss of the relationship that we grieve. It is the loss of all the could have beens and should have beens, the unrealized hopes and dreams that we grieve. It is the separation from that person that we grieve.…
Why Is There No Help
I have not wrote for the last couple of days because honestly they have been hell. I found out that my daughter's psychiatric facility is trying to discharge my daughter next month despite her assaulting a nurse and trying to escape from the facility. Whether she will actually be discharged or not remains to be…
