New Normals

For the last five years my life has been consumed with new normals. My first real taste of new normals started when my dad passed away five years ago. Followed shortly by my mother walking away from my siblings and I. I had to adjust to the fact that I no longer had parents. It…

Changes

I have struggled to write lately because my life has changed so much in the last few months. I am still dealing with my daughter and all that entails. But now I am also going through a divorce after 14 years and am now the sole parent and caretaker of my younger four children. I…

Lost Without My Village

Hey y'all sorry I've not wrote in a while. Life has been crazy busy. Being a single parent to four kiddos is no joke. My hat goes off to all the single parents out there. I had no idea it was this hard. Thankfully I feel like I'm finally getting the hang of it. I…

Fighting To Stand

This has been a week from hell. I'm just so freaking tired of hell. I know understand the saying that no good deed goes unpunished. The harder I try to do good, the worse things are getting. I'm just so exhausted. I'm one freaking person. I try so hard to do good. I try so…

I Miss The Old Me

For a very long time I have tried to find the person I use to be prior to Conduct Disorder. I use to be a spitfire. I was a happy go lucky, full of life, always laughing, never take life to seriously person. I loved who I was. I have searched and searched for that…

This Is Not For Nothing

I am finally back. Sorry about the brief hiatus but what can I say other than life can be a lot at times. But I am also learning to try to look for silver linings in everything. It's a coping skill my dad taught me during the last nine years of his life. Thankfully there…

Everything But Depressed

I try very hard not to make my post too venty (yes I made up my own word), but today that is exactly what I am need to do is vent. I think that is why I have not been able to write lately. I am such a mess right now and I keep choking…