I have struggled to write lately because my life has changed so much in the last few months. I am still dealing with my daughter and all that entails. But now I am also going through a divorce after 14 years and am now the sole parent and caretaker of my younger four children.
I have decided to change this blog from being solely focused on my daughter. To it encompassing everything about my life. Because honestly each situation plays into the other situations greatly. There is not an aspect in my life that is not either affected by my daughter, the divorce, or raising four kids alone. Honestly that is all my life seems to be about anymore one of those three things.
Writing has always been my outlet and best coping skill. Maybe that is why I’m struggling to cope lately. Because right now while things have quieted down with my daughter for the time being, the rest of my life has gone to hell in a hay basket. But I haven’t been really writing to cope because this blog was so focused on my daughter. So now I will be writing about everything that is my chaotic and crazy life.
If someone had told me years ago that I would be the mother of an emerging psychopath, divorcing after 14 years, and a single mother of 4 kiddos, I would have said they were out of their minds. But here we are. There is no words to describe what this life is like. It’s unimaginable. I still sit here daily telling myself this can’t be my life. But it is. So welcome to my new life. It’s going to be a bumpy ride.