I am finally back. Sorry about the brief hiatus but what can I say other than life can be a lot at times. But I am also learning to try to look for silver linings in everything. It's a coping skill my dad taught me during the last nine years of his life. Thankfully there…
Everything But Depressed
I try very hard not to make my post too venty (yes I made up my own word), but today that is exactly what I am need to do is vent. I think that is why I have not been able to write lately. I am such a mess right now and I keep choking…
Bittersweet Victory
Bittersweet Victory
Re-victimized By My Abuser
Tonight, I received sixteen back to back calls from my daughter in less than ninety minutes. Each call triggering me more then the one before it. I knew it was nothing serious because when the staff calls they always leave voicemails. My daughter knew from our last conversation the day before that I was not…
The Nightmare That Never Ends
I have sat here for hours contemplating everything that has gone on over the last week. There are no words to describe the level of hell that this last month has been for me, much less this last week. I feel like I've lived a year in this last month, and a month in this…
A Year In Review
Yesterday was my 38th birthday. I use to love my birthday. So much so I would try to stretch it into a birthday week. That all changed for me last year. Last year I spent my birthday in a four hour meeting dealing with my daughter's allegations that I had personally trained her in oral…
When Is Enough, Enough?
Have you ever got to the point where you are so beat down by life and all you can do is wonder when is enough, enough? That is how I have felt for the last week. It is why I haven't been able to write for almost a week because I am at my limit…
Can I Just Be Brutally Honest For A Second
I am one of those people that was born without something called a filter. I can be brutally honest at times and end up hurting people. I hate when I do that. So I have learned to try to have a filter and try to think before I speak. In writing this blog I have…
You Make Me Brave
These last few years have been utter hell as I have gone through all of these things with my daughter practically alone. I did not have much of a support system. My father died in 2015, which was the same year my mother decided she didn't want to be a mother and abandoned my siblings…
The Dark Side Of Having Mother’s Intuition
I woke up this morning and my gut immediately knew something bad is heading our way. My spidey senses are tingling like crazy as it senses the trouble that is coming. I can feel the disturbance in the force. Some of you reading this know EXACTLY what I am talking about. No further explanation is…
