This Is Not For Nothing

I am finally back. Sorry about the brief hiatus but what can I say other than life can be a lot at times. But I am also learning to try to look for silver linings in everything. It's a coping skill my dad taught me during the last nine years of his life. Thankfully there…

Everything But Depressed

I try very hard not to make my post too venty (yes I made up my own word), but today that is exactly what I am need to do is vent. I think that is why I have not been able to write lately. I am such a mess right now and I keep choking…

Re-victimized By My Abuser

Tonight, I received sixteen back to back calls from my daughter in less than ninety minutes. Each call triggering me more then the one before it. I knew it was nothing serious because when the staff calls they always leave voicemails. My daughter  knew from our last conversation the day before that I was not…

A Year In Review

Yesterday was my 38th birthday. I use to love my birthday. So much so I would try to stretch it into a birthday week. That all changed for me last year. Last year I spent my birthday in a four hour meeting dealing with my daughter's allegations that I had personally trained her in oral…

You Make Me Brave

These last few years have been utter hell as I have gone through all of these things with my daughter practically alone. I did not have much of a support system. My father died in 2015, which was the same year my mother decided she didn't want to be a mother and abandoned my siblings…